It’s scary showing the world your whole self, opening up your heart and revealing your inner most parts of what makes you, you. But as I continue to chase after my dreams and what makes me come alive, God always brings me back to this:
Be you. Share your heart.
You never know who might need to hear it.
4 years ago this month I started this little blog. I had no idea then where that journey would take me. All I knew was that I craved something new and different, something I could call my own and something good in my life.
I had just recently turned 30 and was in an incredibly low place in my life. Change and fresh starts were what I needed right then. I desperately needed something good to pour myself into and that in turn led me to hit “publish“.
I was sad, broken, and lost and was searching frantically to find a piece of myself again. For the first time in my life I felt what it was like to deal with anxiety and depression, something I thought the “all put together self” that I was, would never have to deal with. Haha, I laugh now at that thought thinking that I could always handle everything. I was so embarrassed by that, that I chose to deal with it all on my own. People around me knew some thing was wrong or off but I left out all the real details of what I was really going through.
I’m a little bit of a fighter when push comes to shove and with my own counseling background I knew I had to make big changes in every aspect of my life. And so that’s exactly what I did. I don’t recommend going it alone. It was incredibly hard and a slow journey but thanks to God’s grace He pulled me through and brought me through an amazing journey of growth and landed me on the other side of hope and so, so much goodness!
In the midst of that journey, birthed this baby…this space…this blog.
My desire for starting this blog was simple…
I wanted to push myself to be open and share my heart with others, something I had never been very good at, and in turn hopes to encourage someone else along the way. I always said if I only encouraged one person along the way then I accomplished what I set out to do.
And now fast forward 4 years later… that is still my hearts desire. I haven’t always been consistent. I haven’t always stuck to what I had planned. I have given up, failed and thrown in the towel numerous times. But the one thing that has never changed is the purpose… I want this to be a place where you feel welcomed, inspired, and encouraged. So much has happened in four years and God has brought me through so much and this little space has turned into something so much more than I thought it would. I have such big dreams for this little baby of mine and I know God is going to use it for His good!
Thank you all of you who have been a part of this journey. I can’t even tell you how grateful I am for you! I want to know your heart and where you are at in life so please leave a comment or shoot me an email. Let’s chat!
Also if you made it this far, I want to reward you! I’m going to be sending out some special gifts throughout the rest of this month to my followers. All you have to do is enter your email to follow my blog. If you already follow me, leave a comment below and I’ll be sure to enter your name in the drawings! Thanks for reading along! 🙂
2 thoughts on “4 Years Ago…”
April, I always knew you were beautiful inside and out but reading your blog makes me appreciate your beauty all the more. I love and miss you my friend.
Aww, thank you sweet friend for these beautiful words! Thankful for you! Let’s catch up soon! Love you!!